one thing that i've learned over the years is that it's really REALLY hard to find a person that you feel a instinctive connection with.... i won't/can't go into details because it's something that's better experienced than explained.... like i said, it's instinctive, you just know =)
for me its seems harder to find that connection because of my background.....living as a korean in korea, but raised in america.

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I had a good conversation w/ yun-hae today for the first time in over a year or so. we dated for a month and afterwards i got my heart shredded to pieces during the breakup... naturally, it was really awkward seeing each other at church for quite a while after that.....

we were both pretty messed up when we started dating. she was getting over a big breakup of her own and i was this ball of insecurity and loneliness. well, we both turned out for the better after the breakup. she was finally able to stand up on her own.... getting her degree in social welfare after next semester, being content w/ life in general and where she's heading. for me, got myself into another relationship and another breakup...in the process, became more confident about who i am.

all in all though, it's a good feeling to realize that you've put your past demons behind and became wiser/better person.